feeling sad

So, today, I’m feeling sad. My medication isn’t working anymore…. I see my doctor at the beginning of this month. He’s supposed to be helping me find the right medication. I hope we can find the right ones.I just feel so utterly alone… My alters are fighting for control of the body… Amilia is so angry and Lucy is just so emotional… Stacey is just so self-conscious. She doesn’t want to eat. Amilia wants to harm the body… She is just so angry. She would prefer it if the body ided… What she doesn’t realize is that if she kills the body, she kills herself.

therapy session today eating issues

So, today in therapy, we talked about my eating issues. We discussed how my eating issues directly related back to my past  and to my abusers. My counselor told me that my anger was rightfully placed and that I was validated in my anger. She did tell me however that I needed to place that anger on my abusers and not on myself. She told me that if I continue these behaviors, that it’s only giving power back to my abusers.

The Way of the Cross: hope for the abused.

Last Easter, God gave new insight on Christ’s Crucifixion and Resurrection.  As I read each of the accounts of the crucifixion, I was STRUCK anew by what HE ENDURED…and how it speaks to the experiences of women who have been abused, exploited, and trafficked. As survivors heal, there are many barriers–Does anyone understand? Where was […]

https://heatherevanslcsw.wordpress.com/2016/03/25/the-way-of-the-cross-hope-for-the-abused/

Easter egg hunt

So, today, we had an Easter egg hunt. We were allowed to find five eggs each. And my eggs I got, candy, soda, candy, candy, and soda. It was a lot of fun. 🙂 I have a question for my readers. What mental illness do you have, and how do you cope with it?

update for today

So, today, I talked to my therapist about the nightmares I’ve been having. She told me to come up with two things I could do to keep myself safe while dealing with them. I chose playing with PlayDough and texting a friend. These were both things I could do to keep myself safe.

Antidepressant not working anymore

So, by antidepressant has stopped working. I don’t know why but it just has. Maybe it’s time for them to raise it or something, I’m not sure.also, my medication for nightmares has stopped working too. I’m not getting good sleep at night at all. This is not fun. Trigger warning:

I have

also, my medication for nightmares has stopped working too. I’m not getting good sleep at night at all. This is not fun. Trigger warning:

I have nightmares about the abuse that I went there as a child. I have nightmares about the abuse that I suffered as a result of being in a colt. The nightmares last all through the night, and it’s very frustrating that I can’t get the proper sleep I need to survive daily. I just wish the nightmares would go away. I don’t like them at all.

nursing students visit

So today, some nursing students came to visit our facility. They come every Wednesday to visit us. It’s really cool that they take the time to come visit us. So, I’m supposed to talk to my counselor later today about filling out a guide dog  application. Looking forward to this.