possbily volunteering for the center for the prevention of abuse

I might  be volunteering for the center for the prevention of abuse. The training osts $100. Once you volunteer 20 hours of your time, you get reimbursed for the cost. I can’t afford to pay the cost of training, so they’re going to see if we can get the fee waived. My counselor doesn’t know if this is a good thing for me to do as I just got out of the hospital. She’s going to talk to me about it more on Monday. I want to do this because it would be a good way for me to give back to my community.

Today so far!

So, today, I had a women’s health wellness check up. We got there, and answered all the questions, I even told the doctor that I had ace history of sexual abuse. After we answer all of her questions, she said, you don’t need to do this exam, you only need one every three years. I was happy about that. After that, I came back and talk to my boyfriend for a little while on Skype. Then, at 3:30 we had a group called wellness self-management where we watched a documentary about the dissociative identity disorder her. It was really good. It’s one of my favorite documentaries. I was excited for today’s group. No, I’m just reading other people’s blogs and updating my blog. Hope everyone is well. If you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to call me at below. Love to all. Please don’t hesitate to comment below.

How to cope with dissociative identity disorder?

I have been recently diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, as in it has officially been written down in my records. I was wondering how to cope with the disorder. I mean, how to cope with the time loss and the amnesia. How do I cope with alters that want to harm me? I’m new to this, and any help would be greatly appreciated.

Meet Stacey (alter introduction)

Hi, my name is Stacey, and I am 12. I just want to die… I hate all these memories… I’m just done living… I hate that we are gaining so much weight. Amilia binges a lot and that makes me very angry… Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

plan for therapy

So, I talked to my nurse tonight about my plans for therapy, and she told me it would probably be the beginning of next week before she heard anything regarding my therapy. So, I have some alters that are very angry. Amilia can’t stop thinking about her abuse past, and Stacey is angry that I’m still gaining weight… I just wish I could make everyone happy… Hoping we have a good plan for therapy…

alters upset!!!!!

So, all of my alters are upset beause we had nightmares last night. It was awfull. Any tips for calming them down would be greatly appreciated!!!! So, I’ve had a pretty good day so far. Got up for breakfast, and then took a shower. After that, I hung out with my boyfriend for a little bit, and then I went back to sleep before lunch. I went back to sleep after lunch until about 2:30 PM. It was a nice nap compared to last night. Does anyone have any questions for me? If so, please comment below. Please and thanks. Rayette

back from the hospital!!!!!

So, on Saturday, I went into the hospital for suicidal thoughts and  because Amilia was threatening to kill me. I got an official diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). It was suh a relief to have the doctors believe me… I’ve been telling them for years about the people in my head, and they finally believed me. I’m so happy to finally get tis diagnosis because now this means I will get the propper treatment. Overall, this hospitalization was a good one.

feeling low

So, today I’m on fifteen minute checks. Having suicidal thoughts… Wishing I could just escape this pain… So the night before last, I ended up cutting. I was put one to one with  a staff member. They gave me Ativan as a PRN yesterday. Hope it works. If anyone has any questions, please don’t hesitate to comment below.

suicide???

So been having suicidal thoughts all day today. I’m on fifteen minute cheks right now… Last night I slept in the observation room. It’s a room with a mattress on the floor…. It was a very sebering experience..

Middle of the night blog post

So, I woke up in the middle of the night for no reason…. I just wish I could go back to sleep… I’m just so done with all of this. I’m just so done with the nightmares and the flashbacks… I’m just so done…. I just want to live a normal life…