Update time!!!!!

Hi everyone, I’m doing OK   today besides the fact that amount keeps telling me she wants to die. I wish I could could type this with my voice. 

update for today

So, apparently, the other day, Amelia posted on my blog without my knowledge. She posted about suicide, and my blood shares my blog automatically shares to blog automatically shares to Facebook. My friend saw it and brought it to my attention. We went to the counselor to talk about it, and it put me on 15th and took things out of my room.

Amelia’s suicidal

Tired of waking up from nightmares at night and during the day hey, it’s Amelia, and I am very alone right now. thoughts of suicide keep crossing my mind, and it makes me feel even Thoughts of suicide keep crossing my mind, and it makes me feel even worse. Sometimes, I think, if I were dead, things would be easier. The host has no clue that I’m feeling this way. sometimes, I think it’s better to keep my feelings to myself than to tell anyone about them. I just need someone to talk to. If anyone is available, please comment.

Amelia’s thoughts

Hey, it’s Amelia, and I am fed up. I am sick of everything. I just want everything to stop. I’m just done with everything. Life can take a back seat for a while. I will want to be in control.

Damn thoughts!

I know the nighttime is hard for me, but the daytime is becoming just as hard. Flashbacks all the time and Nightmares even during the day when I’m trying to sleep. Just want to do something to end everything I’m tired of the pain I’m tired of it all and. Just want to do something to end everything I’m tired of the pain I’m tired of it all I’m just sick and tired Amelia age 16

Angry

I’m just so angry all the time. Why mommy did you beat me and do the things you did? Why daddy did you do the things you did? I don’t understand why I had to go through. I’m just so angry and alone and frustrated. only sixteen, but I have a lot to be angry about. I just wish things had been different when I was younger. Amelia tags{lbindness, mental illness, Alters, dissociative identity disorder}

Feelings

Hey, it’s Amelia, and I am feeling interesting. I am feeling aggravated and agitated. I am doing okay I guess. We’ll talk more about feeling post. I just need someone to vent to. I’m only sixteen, but I have a lot of responsibility to uphold the system. I just need a friend. I’m just hoping to be able to talk to people more I just really don’t know what to say. I’m feeling a lot of things, and some of them can’t be mentioned on this blog. I just wish everything would stop and go away. I hate my marriage then flashbacks. I just hate it. I just want some form of really and I don’t care how I get it. It needs to come, and it needs to come now. I need me!

therapy today

so, I have therapy today, and it was really good. We talked a lot about the Alters And what I could do to keep them all safe. We discussed a lot about Amelia and Amber and how we could work on teaching them better coping skills I also discussed process cooperation instead of integration with the Alters.

Lucy

hey, it Lucy and me scared. We don’t want to remember the stuff that happened to us. Me only four, but me knows how to type. Me is using voice to text. Me no like big people. Me scared of big people.

update time

so, I had nightmares last night about being chased by a shark. Love like 2 hours today, and I still have nightmare. I slept like 2 hours today, and I still have nightmares. I have therapy tomorrow, and maybe some of my alters will come out to speak. I’m not sure though, so I will just keep I’m not sure though, so I will just keep trying anyway. I’m trying to make this blog post longer so I can get more followers and readers I’m trying to make this blog post longer so I can get more followers and readers. struggling with thoughts of anorexia today including restricting and over-exercising. My alters are going to make blog posts today introducing themselves and telling them a little Introducing themselves and telling them a little about themselves. thanks for reading, and everyone have a Thanks for reading, and everyone have a blessed day.