tired of things….

So, I’m tired of staff at my facility telling me to suppress my alters or to “Not play that game with them.” I’m tired of the nightmares and flashbacks… I’m just tired of everything….. Looking forward to leaving here in a few months. I’m going to call the place I’m going to on Monday to ask them a bunch of questions…..I’m going to ask them how they deal with BPD, self-harm, and dissociative identity disorder. I want to thank my readers for continuing to read my blog. It really means a lot to me.

update

So feeling kind of depressed. I got the Internet on my computer because of my phone today. I feel like cutting because earlier, I ran into the computer and broke a clock. I’m apparently supposed to be using my cane in the group home. I didn’t know that. Anyway, I have to explain that to the staff tomorrow. Other than that, I am doing pretty well.

update

So I spoke with the main staff at my group home, and she said that I needed a higher level of care. On Tuesday, we are going to contact albany care to see if they got my referral. I don’t think she was happy that I had to leave the group  home. I hope I can get in. A former vision teacher of mine said she might be able to take me to the place since otherwise, i  would have to take the Mega Bus or amtrak. If I took amtrak, I would have to pay $45 extra for the rest of my luggage. I hope this all works out, and at least at albany care, I will have mopre staff to talk to.